My littlest baby monkey started preschool on Monday. Wow, what an emotional day for both of us! I knew that it would be really tough for Devynn but I was caught
completely off guard that it was so hard for me.
Devynn seemed excited as I got her ready that morning. Everything was going well until I asked to take her picture.
"Devynn, can I take your picture for your first day of school?"
"Fine!"


I should've known then how the morning would play out!
As we were leaving to go, Devynn seemed happy and excited but I could feel that she was getting nervous. As we were walking into the school, her nerves became even more apparent. She didn't cry or want to be held (which would be her usual reaction) but she got really quiet and held my hand tightly.
Things really started to go downhill when we walked into her class. She started crying and got the death grip on my legs. I tried to reassure her that I wasn't leaving right away but she was still getting pretty worked up. I stayed with her through story time and she calmed down a little, although she still wouldn't leave my side. Next it was time for the kids to go to the playground. I thought that Devynn would be excited about that and it would be easier for me to leave, but I was wrong. As we walked outside, Devynn really started to meltdown. She was crying and wanting to be picked up. Her teacher, Ms. Debbie, tried to take her hand, but she really started freaking out and started grabbing my legs really tightly. As soon as Ms. Debbie was able to get her little hands pried off me, I walked out of the play area. I could hear her screaming and it took every ounce of strength in me not to run back, scoop her up and take her home with me. My eyes were filled with tears as I walked back into the office. Boy, did I feel silly talking to the director while on the verge of crying. She was probably thinking "No wonder her daughter is having such a rough time out there!"
I cried the entire drive home. :( I called the school a little later to check on my little monkey. The director told me that she had only cried for about 5 minutes (less time than me!) and was doing ok. That was a bit of a relief.
At 12:30 pm I went to pick up my baby girl. I peeked through the windows before I walked in and could see that Devynn was happily eating lunch at the table with her classmates. When I walked in, I was expecting her to run over to me and either tell me how mean I was or be giddy with happiness. Instead, she smiled wide and exuded a sense of relief when she saw me but stayed at the table to finish her lunch. She didn't seem like she was in any kind of rush to leave. Ms. Debbie told me that she hadn't shed any more tears after those first 5 minutes, which surprised her based on Devynn's total meltdown when I left. She said that Devynn hadn't felt comfortable enough to play with any of the other kids yet (not really a surprise there!) but she had played by herself and didn't just pout in a corner. All in all, the day went pretty well for her.
She was little Miss Chatty on the drove home as she told me about the other kids and what they had done, although she couldn't remember most of their names. She only seems to remember one little girl's name, Kylie, and told us that she is "cute." She has been singing "The Wheels on the Bus" and told me "my teacher and my friends taught me it." She seems to have had fun on her first day so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that her second day starts a bit smoother.
I'm pretty sure that Monday morning was actually harder for me than it was for her. She is my last baby but I just didn't expect it to be that hard for me to let her go. I know that this is going to be a great experience for her, and she will have lots of friends and be a little social butterfly before I know it. :)